Breaking The Habit

I can't live without you

2012-01-31T21:42:00.006+07:00

a journey

2011-12-01T18:02:00.005+07:00

let me take you back to the journey that we've been through this couple of years and to clarify it doesn't mean that i beg to come back to you for a relationship but lets be sensitive a little.

from the beginning i never take this relationship not serious because i am always hoping that this could lead somewhere only one mistake i did when you proposed to me and i said i wasn't ready for it (it happened when i'm still a student).

since then this bond between us getting stronger but sometimes you treated me unwell, when you got emotional you tends to say bad words and judging me as someone bad. meanwhile i am still patient even though it hurts sometimes but at the end when you become silent, i am the one who apologized to you (if i think again maybe i'm stupid, but when i look deeper i did it because i love you and i have to understand you).

if i'm someone else, i would be leaving you already. BUT i am not.

i trusted all your sweet words when we were together, for not leaving me and stuff and i still trust those words until today (how stupid am i) when you could changed everything like a blink of an eye, very fast (but not for me).

i tend to be honest to myself (maybe it is a huge mistake), i am not a fan of denial and pretend. BUT i believe this hurts you too, for sure you are stronger than me but for sure it hurts me more than it hurts you.

i try not to complain about anything when i am beside you because i enjoyed everything and i got a simple happiness that i've always wanted. i complained only if i see something that could actually hurts yourself (because i am too much care for you rather than myself).

i know you were happy with me together, and now you are trying to be happy by letting me go and find someone out there. here is the truth: you may try to find someone out there, and i hope that you could have the same happiness like when you were with me, but if you think again why'd you let me go and try to find another which takes time and uncertainty if you can actually be happy with?

so with all my honesty, loyalty, patience, understands, and care i'm worth to fight for, and it isn't my turn to fight for you, but now it is yours.

so this is really not about moving forward. i could be with someone new tomorrow if i wanted to, but it wouldn't be right to lie to myself.

this thing doesn't mean to confuse you or whatever. this is just what i have in mind. and notice: if you keep letting someone go in your life, by the end of the day you will end up alone. and i don't want you to be alone, i wish to be the one who could take care of you but maybe there is another person who is sincere enough to do that.

one thing for sure, i appreciate that you gave me a real happiness like i never had before. as i mentioned in the previous post, i will always be the one who care the most to you everytime you need me.

small letter

2011-11-30T19:34:00.004+07:00

I'll do whatever that you want me to do, even though to leave you alone there and let you find another person because I love you so much.

If you think you can be happy with someone over there then i'll just have to support your decision. But the question is "will you really find someone that can actually makes you happy and loves you no matter what?" I somehow doubt that.

I will always be here, be someone that care to you and understand you the most. I will be the same person that you know me, like when we were together in bed. Be as good to you as before.

I shouldn't be the one who cried myself out here, because I know that you are the one who needs a person like me in your life.

I'll give you a space for yourself to exactly feel about your decision, but I also will open my heart for you if one day you want to come back to me for real. BUT when that time comes, I am not gonna let the same person break my heart twice so if you realize that only me who is right to stand beside you, please be sincere.

You can't never compare what I've been through to yours.

This letter is to show how much I love you in my life.

With Love,

Little Dream

maaf

2011-11-11T02:53:00.002+07:00

maafkan aku karena terlalu mencintaimu

maafkan aku karena terlalu sayang padamu

maafkan aku karena aku ingin menjagamu

semoga kamu mengerti betapa sakitnya hati ini ketika aku tak mendengarmu mengatakan: "aku cinta kamu" lagi

chaiyo!

2011-09-08T22:31:00.003+07:00

I realized something, the thing that was keeping me down these few days isn't entirely about jobs, but also I MISS MY LOVE SO MUCH that's why i sometimes cry alone because i can't express it to the people at home and i can only keep it within myself.

BUT

I have words that i will use to motivate myself:

"even though i miss u like crazy, i still have u in my life and i should be grateful for that"

I hope that sentence can be a way for me to feel happy and better soon.

I love you dear

2011-09-07T13:18:00.000+07:00

one day i'm gonna say this to the person that i love eternally

:(

2011-09-06T19:49:00.004+07:00

these few days, i've been down, so down that i don't know what to say and what to think anymore..

i feel like nobody understand me, i have want and need but i can't even say it all i can do is just keeping it inside, until at this point i can't take it no more..

why do i have to feel this again, i should have known from the beginning if i be here i will have this feeling again.

i was so happy to be back home before but now i am not even sure that home is the right place for me..

i need you and i love you sayangku, being with u is all i need cause when i'm with you, i feel great and happy..

meanial job!

2011-07-21T19:41:00.002+07:00

i am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo gonna quit this job! i don't feel it at all and yet my boss act like shit!

share, no?

2011-07-10T16:17:00.004+07:00

Everyone is different, we have different personalities, different problems, different solutions in solving those problems, to sum up everybody have different kind of life.

It amazes me that someone that comes into your life could make you happier than ever or in other case could make your life very miserable but gladly this one doesn't happen to me.

Not everything I can't handle well, I tend to be numb in some situations that might come along but I can't never pretend (well maybe I am just too honest to myself :p).

Right now I can't define myself as numb because apparently I am not because of all the reactions that I made "unintentionally" and I think only me who can make it better even though some people know about my situation it won't matters until I act on this.

But

I do not harm anyone on this, only myself so every kind of emotions that I feel now, I share with my empty room and I decided to write it on this blog (for trying to make me feel better that I can speak like this in this moment :D).

I can't say that I am unhappy at the moment because I had the amazing holiday in the past 2 weeks, but I also do not dare to say that I am happy either. So what can I say is just I am not the luckiest guy on earth but I am lucky to have something that people can't see.

Sometimes I feel like I want to share things with people but maybe better not to, because I will get nothing rather than a "vocal applause" for several minutes, so really at the end only you who can celebrate it with your own self.

Oh today I wrote a note in facebook, I didn't know why I wrote that note for either but maybe for some people to wake up and realize something about love and trust in a relationship. Well I will share it in here too if you guys are not in my friend lists in facebook so you can read, here it goes:

"I realized that the concept of giving your credentials (ex: username and password) to your partner is stupid! that is your business and your privacy, why can't just let it be!

Being in a relationship doesn't mean that you MUST give such things to your partner! the concept of trust is not about giving your accounts credentials to your partner..challenge them with responsibility of keeping the trust by all means and if he/she loves you i am sure they can be responsible for it without having to give them such silly things. I am sure giving the credentials to your partner can't keep them from cheating on you! sometimes people are just stupid, they think their partner can't create another account with different name and password?!

Love is about trust and responsibility on how you committed to your partner! it is as simple as that.
there are still many good people who can keep the trust and keep the love sane!"

That was just one opinion from me, it is fine if the person share it with his gf his credentials with his own will but not when his gf ask him personally to do that or simply means "no pushing" each other to have credentials one another just to access their partner accounts.

I actually do not know what I just wrote here for but who cares, this is my own blog and I am free to write anything.

make it stop!

2011-06-07T11:02:00.003+07:00

"when everyone needs medicine to heal physical pain, i need it to heal the pain inside my soul"

- long lost child-

go with it

2011-05-17T01:29:00.002+07:00

Don't know where I am going, I don't have the answer but I don't want to regret it either..maybe I should just accept the fact => this is the best for me besides it is true what my friend told me today that I chose it here so I have to take all the risk with me and be responsible with it even though it is too DAMN hard uffff!!!

I'll be well soon, I will be...even though I won't, I just have to pass this even by pretending I enjoy it here at least until it's done.

EMBRACE THE MOMENT AND BE GRATEFUL THAT I HAVE THIS OPPORTUNITY!!!

worthless

2011-05-16T11:22:00.002+07:00

I feel like shit when friday comes knowing that I won't be able to go to the Mosque here!!!!:( :(

my happiness

2011-05-15T22:46:00.001+07:00

nothing could make me happier but being with the person that I love.

And yes, it is you...

Tolol

2011-05-02T16:34:00.003+07:00

Osamah bin Laden memang sudah meninggal dunia, dan saya sangat2 sedih mendengarnya, memang dia telah membunuh banyak orang tapi kita lihat dulu, siapa yang dia bunuh sebenarnya???? seluruh masyarakat A.S merayakannya dengan meriah atas meninggalnya Osamah padahal belum tahukah mereka siapa diri mereka sendiri?? siapaaa?????

Ada statement yang saya suka ketika membaca msn news ini dia:

"Bahkan bila dijumlah, korban yang dianggap sebagai akibat dari tindakan Osama, belum sebanding dengan korban agresi tentara Amerika Serikat dan sekutunya. Berapa orang ditewaskan tentara AS di Afghanistan, Iraq, Libya? Lalu berapa pula korban tindakan Israel di Palestina yang didukung AS? Amerika Serikat harusnya mawas diri mengapa banyak dimusuhi," kata Sekretaris Jenderal DPP Partai Bulan Bintang (PBB) BM Wibowo.

how many people have been killed by U.S.A and its alies??? how many people have been killed by Israel? how manyyyy????? compared to what Osama did its really nothing to what they did.

just because they have been killed by you, so is it ok not to make a big deal out of it?! LOSERS!!!!!

GO AHEAD, celebrate it LOSERS!

Apparently Malaysia is not as good as Indonesia

2011-04-22T12:12:00.003+07:00

Hello bloggers,

This time i really need to complain about the living situation in Malaysia because it really pisses me off lately.

As a start here the transportation is more modern than in Indonesia but it sucks, there are districts which can't be access by public transportation and this is unbelievable, they build condominiums and apartments but people MUST have car in order to be able to live there because apparently the government is not thinking about people who do not have their own transportation!!

In Indonesia even though the public transportation is not modern but to go anywhere there or to live anywhere won't be a problem because you can find them everywhere.

The second one is the location of the mosque are far with each others, it is claimed to be a muslim countries but i think in this case Indonesia is more islamic countries compare to malaysia, there for muslim people is so easy to go and find the mosque for pray especially for friday prayer where muslims must go to mosques for prayer.

I am a victim of this, now is friday and i am stuck at the office couldn't go to mosque for pray mainly because the location of the mosque is far and need a lot of time to go and come back to the office.

It was fine when i was a student here to live in this country because i stay inside the university but now when i stay outside i find to live here as a worker is really difficult.

I aimed to work here so much where my family wants me back home, now when i got this i think this is not the best option that i chose

I am sorry for complaining but I hope somebody who works at the minister of transporation read this and fix this as soon as possible.

I know

2011-04-18T00:45:00.002+07:00

now I know the thing that keeping me down these days which is: BEING ALONE

It has been bothering my days knowing that I am going to start a real life ALONE and facing the change ALONE.

I am afraid, I am nervous, will I be able to stand up ALONE?

Everytime I am apart from people that I know and I love, it scares me yet It hurts me too..

I just hope again I can face what is ahead of me without being depressed.

recovery

2011-03-22T16:01:00.002+07:00

Recover from something takes time..

I am feeling down and I hope time will heals me soon

BUT

I am so happy that I am with you

LU!

Full-Feeling or Fool-Feeling ?!

2011-03-09T17:27:00.009+07:00

I am the kind of guy who is bad in hiding my feeling, people usually notice when i think about something...

Well i am good at pretending but NOT at hiding.

What i am trying to learn is about separation, i know in life there will be time to come and also time to go BUT everytime i have to deal to be apart from the people that i love i can't handle it well such as crying (damn it should i be ashamed of this???!)

Separation have come many times in my life, here they are:

1. When my grandma went for hajj to Mecca, I was crying (I was still a kid aged < 10).
2. When my mom left me to Abu Dhabi, i was still a kid at that moment says aged 10, was crying a lot.
3. When i graduated from Junior High School, had to be separated from my closest friends also cried but when i arrived at home.
4. When my uncle left me to Abu Dhabi, i was damn crying as well since we were very close each other says aged 13.
5. When my grandpa passed away (of course this is the normal occasion for people to cry).
6. When i graduated from Senior High School at the Graduation ceremony on the stage(my friend started to cry first then most of us crying when we were singing "Sayonara").
7. When i left to Malaysia for the first time to study there made me cry (realized that i will be far away from home).
8. When my best friend in college left me because he has finished his study and at that time some friends also left so it made me feel lonely so i cried.
9. When i left my friend in college because i am done with my study in college (tears at the airport).
10. When you come and leave of course (everytime).
11. When i am done with my master degree just feeling awfully sad (graduation ceremony not yet though).
12. I think it will happen soon.......

Well I hope these things doesn't make me less a man, since you know crying for guys is stereotyped as less manly or what the hell the name is.

I am just a guy who is bad when it comes into separation realizing that i will be lonely again and i hate to be lonely or feeling alone!

u r not alone

2011-02-28T18:51:00.002+07:00

just had a conversation about love thing with my cousin's gf...

basically she's so much loving him even though something had happened and she still trusted him

we are not so different my friend, i am so much loving someone too and i know how it feels, sometimes it hurts but u can't let ur feeling go away

we have something in common

wish you well

Picos de Europa, Spain

2011-02-21T16:39:00.011+07:00

These are pictures on our trip to Picos de Europa (Europe Peaks) 20/02/2011

It began with the tele cabin (cable car) to go up to the mountain

These are pictures from the mountains

Panorama view in Cantabrica

In Asturias with Picos de Europa behind and beautiful lake (unfortunately it was raining when we took this picture and cloudy)

The Sanctuary in Asturias, the legend said that Mary once appeared here

I've never had this kind of experience before, it was awesome many thanks to my friend Ricardo who took me there I really had a great time.

Irritating question

2011-02-19T17:24:00.002+07:00

Why do people ask questions that they could actually ask to the person themselves instead of me???!!! It started bothering me, really...

I don't know how are they doing or so just because i know them personally, so i am not the right person for you to give such question like this:

xxx: hey, how's your cousin doing?
me: good i guees, i don't know i am not with him

which in mind i wanted to say: Oh God, how the hell am i supposed to know??? can u ask by urself??!!! We are related but if u r interested to know how is he doing just ask by urself!!! And you have his FACEBOOK for God's sake!! post in his wall or do something about it!!!

then he went offline

I am sorry if u don't like the way i answered your question but don't chat with me if only you wanted to know about how my cousin is doing when you already know that i am not in my hometown at the moment.

Burgos, Spain

2011-02-18T06:44:00.004+07:00

Another province in Spain is Burgos, it is not a part of the Basque Country already. Mostly the tourist spots here are cathedral and church and here are some of them, enjoy!

San Sebastian, Spain

2011-02-18T06:26:00.004+07:00

Located in the north of Spain and included to the region of Basque Country, here are some pics that I would love to share with you bloggers.

Trip to PARIS

2011-02-18T02:04:00.005+07:00

Some pictures from my holiday in Paris (10/01/2011-13-01-2011)

Invisible

2010-09-28T00:37:00.004+07:00

Cause I am a Ghost that couldn't be seen

no justice

2010-09-11T17:58:00.003+07:00

you can't just blame and discriminate Islam all over the world because of the chaos that was happening...easy to say when there is a terrorist you said that it is Islam just because 9/11 tragedy...well if you aware and dare enough to find who actually did it, then do. But when they kill Muslim people in Palestine, in Afghanistan everywhere, you shut your mouth up and cover up the media with your lies...what the hell!!! Where is the tolerance?? where??? Tolerance is not only to give for people who like the same gender and other crap, but Tolerance is also for the freedom to live peacefully among the differences in Religion and Cultures without any burden such as building mosque and forbidden to pray in places and forbidden for the Women to wear burqa!!!!! So the one who claim Human Rights is actually the one who does not understand what the meaning of it and ruin it himself! so What the HELL!!!

memories

2010-08-03T18:08:00.005+07:00

i miss the time when i was younger, surrounded by my best friends, all the laugh that we share when we were together, now when i get older that picture those moments of togetherness are started to fade away it's hard to be with them again to share every laugh, every great moments :(

now im with myself with much complicated situation that i have to bear, i wish time is not moving very fast and sooner i will be graduated and again another separation to come with all my friends that are living with me now in this campus residence, damn damn damn....it will be a lot of pain ahead please God make me strong to face all of those!

Disappointed

2010-06-18T18:17:00.004+07:00

For me that kind of thing is matter, and it is a big deal and it does hurt my feeling you pasted that link in msn just to share with others which i think that will be the last thing you could do...

I always try to protect your feeling in any kind of way, but if this means nothing to you is ok but that thing means something for me..

At least you could just respect me for what i believe

This is the day- The Cranberries

2010-06-06T23:56:00.003+07:00

Wow so happy to found this clip, i thought they never made it! Well done you guys ;)

Truly madly deeply

2010-06-06T01:20:00.003+07:00

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.
I love you more with every breath
Truly madly deeply do..
I will be strong I will be faithful
'Cos I'm counting on a new beginning.
A reason for living.
A deeper meaning.
Chorus

I want to stand with you on a mountain.
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever.
Until the sky falls down on me...
Verse 2

And when the stars are shining brightly
In the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish
Send it to heaven
Then make you want to cry..
The tears of joy
For all the pleasure and the certainty.
That we're surrounded
By the comfort and protection of..
The highest power.
In lonely hours.
The tears devour you..
I want to stand with you on a mountain,
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me...
Bridge

Oh can't you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
'Cos it's standing right before you.
All that you need will surely come...

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly madly deeply do...

My Room

2010-06-05T17:12:00.005+07:00

Oh well i have 2 problems at a time, first is that i have to think about when will i clean this mess in my room :p and the second one is when do i cut my hair, it looks ridiculous already...hmmpff!

Something that matters

2010-06-05T16:41:00.003+07:00

Dear Blog,

I started the day doing nothing mostly, just checking the news and see what is happening in the world..

I realize something on what is going on, our people out there are suffer and we do nothing about it, its a shame though but i know its not easy to help them because of this terrified situation..

I feel pain on watch them suffers, i feel sad but all can i do now is pray to God so that something will get better and the truth will come out for them to realize on who the bad people really are?! Hard for them to deal with i understand but if we people could unite altogether to help fight this human violation, i think we are able to do something to them, they just a bunch of people who control the world, and we are much more bigger than them without power but if we unite and throw our ego away we could deal with this issue!

At the moment since i couldn't help them with my own self, all i can do is just try to see something around me, see if i can help anyone in terms of what they need and if i can do something for them, i know i am far away from perfect, but i care and i love to do something for 'em..enough with my ego and selfishness that won't do any better except to satisfy me and won't do any good to the people..

I don't expect something from others only God knows what i do and what it is, and He understand more than other human being that live in this world..

We shouldn't make differences in helping others regarding to their religion, their skin color, their descendants, we should help other because they are HUMAN BEING that have a right to live, to taste his life, to have peace..I respect Rachel Corrie and may her rest in peace!

That basically on what i wanna say...

Thanks for listening to me :)

Aku Milikmu

2010-04-05T19:32:00.010+07:00

This is the clip and the lyrics of the song, enjoy! :)

terdengar lirih bisikanmu
diantara bayang-bayangmu
terucap kata cinta yang dulu tersimpan
dan tak mau pergi

sekejap cinta yang terjalin
dan menjadi sebuah cerita
yang tak mungkin terlupa
terukir dihati
dan tak mau pergi

mungkinkah kumiliki
cinta seperti ini lagi
jangan biarkan aku
kehilangan dirimu

coba dengarkanlah sumpahku (janji suci)
dari hati
aku cinta kamu
jangan dengarkan kata mereka
yang tak ingin kita satu
yakinkan aku milikmu
aku milikmu

jalinan cinta tulus suci
terpadu terikat erat
jangan terpisah lagi
waktu kan menguji
cinta kita berdua

mungkinkah kumiliki
cinta seperti ini lagi
jangan biarkan aku
kehilangan dirimu

coba dengarkanlah sumpahku (janji suci)
dari hati
aku cinta kamu
jangan dengarkan kata mereka
yang tak ingin kita satu
yakinkan aku milikmu
aku milikmu

Back from holiday..

2010-04-05T19:02:00.006+07:00

Hello hello, i am back again here after long time, i had 2 memorable and good holiday and both holiday i spent with my loved ones. I wish i could turn back the time and stop those moments but that's impossible as life must go on, so lets just face what is ahead and i don't have to be afraid coz i know that my heart is belong to you no matter how, so that will helps me passing this feeling and move on with my study and all...

Semangaatttttt!!!!!!!!

Berhenti berharap

2010-02-26T22:39:00.005+07:00

Aku pun sekarang mungkin harus berhenti berharap untuk menemukan sesuatu yang dapat mensupport keadaanku sekarang ini, memang semuanya salah tidak ada yang benar bahkan kebahagiaan yang aku rasakan ini juga mungkin tak akan bisa aku rasakan selamanya..

Andaikan hidup ini bukan sebuah ujian untuk kita bisa melewatinya dengan susah payah seperti ini mungkin aku sudah ada dalam satu posisi dimana aku akan tinggal disitu selamanya, tapi sangat tidak diharapkan bahwa hidup adalah penuh dengan ujian dan mau tidak mau bisa atau tidak bisa jawabannya ada disitu dan itu sangat tegas..aku belum bisa melewati satu ujian ini dalam hidupku karena aku merasakan kebahagiaan ini dengan seutuhnya..

Tuhan sangat mengetahui apa yang akan terjadi pada hamba-Nya dan ketika waktu itu sampai, aku berharap untuk bisa pulih kembali dan melewati ujianNya dengan sempurna...

About being Happy

2009-10-18T02:51:00.004+07:00

Aku merasakan sangat bahagia sekarang ini dan juga sangat bingung untuk memilih apa yang harus aku lakukan untuk hidupku dimasa depan, semakin berat beban bagiku untuk memutuskan apa jalan yang aku ingin tempuh...

Aku bahagia tapi aku takut dengan Tuhan dan takut dengan segala konsekuensi yang aku ingin hadapi di masa depan atau di kehidupan selanjutnya...

Aku percaya bahwa Tuhan adalah sang pemberi maaf bagi hambaNya tapi beban hidup ini terlalu berat untuk kutempuh jikalau memang nanti aku memilih jalan yang salah...

Aku takut dengan apa yang akan terjadi dikehidupanku selanjutnya tetapi aku pun ingin bersama dengan kebahagiaan yang sekarang aku rasakan ini dan tak ingin jauh darinya...

Ya Allah apakah aku salah jika aku ingin bahagia dalam hidupku ini?? Kaulah yang maha mengetahui...ampuni aku jikalau suatu saat nanti aku berada dalam jalan yang engkau tidak ridhoi..amiiin

The thing called: L-I-F-E

2009-09-06T02:58:00.005+07:00

Is a long road

Is a mystery

Is a choice

Is a heaven

Is a hell

Is a pain

But among those things we should be grateful that we are alive and life is not for free everything that we are doing here will have consequences at the end.

Dear Blog

2009-08-28T14:10:00.004+07:00

Hello Blog, it' s been a while...

Now I am here again ready to share something with you..

A lot of things going on with my life when i'm away, I am here back in Malaysia for study again hopefully now i chose the right major that i could handle it well.

I'm staying at the campus accomodation just like before, same old story but better room which lately i'm feeling comfortable here, well it' s far from classroom but i have friends here and most of the time we go to class together, thank you guys!

Oh yea, i've been sick also but now i am ok, thanks for someone out there who accompany me facing the day and night and make me feel better seriously it would be worse if u weren' t there for me ;) and thank you for all my friends also for all the help that you all did for me, i really appreciate it.

Hmmm oh yea it's for you:

Something is going hard sometimes for both of us lately especially when u think that i am being exagerate which i realize that i am but maybe because of you, because i am madly in love with you..
I just want u to listen to me sometimes not to argue again and again, i wasn't really looking for arguing with you at all and i don't want you to assume all the things that i said is for attacking you or being a mistake to you..Not at all, it's the matter of how much you mean to me.ILU

Well life is still going on, so i will come back later with more stories to share with you blog.

Thanks a lot ;)

Myths and Facts About Marijuana

2009-04-26T19:23:00.003+07:00

Myth: Marijuana Can Cause Permanent Mental Illness. Among adolescents, even occasional marijuana use may cause psychological damage. During intoxication, marijuana users become irrational and often behave erratically.

Fact: There is no convincing scientific evidence that marijuana causes psychological damage or mental illness in either teenagers or adults. Some marijuana users experience psychological distress following marijuana ingestion, which may include feelings of panic, anxiety, and paranoia. Such experiences can be frightening, but the effects are temporary. With very large doses, marijuana can cause temporary toxic psychosis. This occurs rarely, and almost always when marijuana is eaten rather than smoked. Marijuana does not cause profound changes in people's behavior.

Myth: Marijuana is Highly Addictive. Long term marijuana users experience physical dependence and withdrawal, and often need professional drug treatment to break their marijuana habits.

Fact: Most people who smoke marijuana smoke it only occasionally. A small minority of Americans - less than 1 percent - smoke marijuana on a daily basis. An even smaller minority develop a dependence on marijuana. Some people who smoke marijuana heavily and frequently stop without difficulty. Others seek help from drug treatment professionals. Marijuana does not cause physical dependence. If people experience withdrawal symptoms at all, they are remarkably mild.

Myth: Marijuana Is More Potent Today Than In The Past. Adults who used marijuana in the 1960s and 1970s fail to realize that when today's youth use marijuana they are using a much more dangerous drug.

Fact: When today's youth use marijuana, they are using the same drug used by youth in the 1960s and 1970s. A small number of low-THC samples seized by the Drug Enforcement Administration are used to calculate a dramatic increase in potency. However, these samples were not representative of the marijuana generally available to users during this era. Potency data from the early 1980s to the present are more reliable, and they show no increase in the average THC content of marijuana. Even if marijuana potency were to increase, it would not necessarily make the drug more dangerous. Marijuana that varies quite substantially in potency produces similar psychoactive effects.

Myth: Marijuana Offenses Are Not Severely Punished. Few marijuana law violators are arrested and hardly anyone goes to prison. This lenient treatment is responsible for marijuana continued availability and use.

Fact: Marijuana arrests in the United States doubled between 1991 and 1995. In 1995, more than one-half-million people were arrested for marijuana offenses. Eighty-six percent of them were arrested for marijuana possession. Tens of thousands of people are now in prison or marijuana offenses. An even greater number are punished with probation, fines, and civil sanctions, including having their property seized, their driver's license revoked, and their employment terminated. Despite these civil and criminal sanctions, marijuana continues to be readily available and widely used.

Myth: Marijuana is More Damaging to the Lungs Than Tobacco. Marijuana smokers are at a high risk of developing lung cancer, bronchitis, and emphysema.

Fact: Moderate smoking of marijuana appears to pose minimal danger to the lungs. Like tobacco smoke, marijuana smoke contains a number of irritants and carcinogens. But marijuana users typically smoke much less often than tobacco smokers, and over time, inhale much less smoke. As a result, the risk of serious lung damage should be lower in marijuana smokers. There have been no reports of lung cancer related solely to marijuana, and in a large study presented to the American Thoracic Society in 2006, even heavy users of smoked marijuana were found not to have any increased risk of lung cancer. Unlike heavy tobacco smokers, heavy marijuana smokers exhibit no obstruction of the lung's small airway. That indicates that people will not develop emphysema from smoking marijuana.

Myth: Marijuana Has No Medicinal Value. Safer, more effective drugs are available. They include a synthetic version of THC, marijuana's primary active ingredient, which is marketed in the United States under the name Marinol.

Fact: Marijuana has been shown to be effective in reducing the nausea induced by cancer chemotherapy, stimulating appetite in AIDS patients, and reducing intraocular pressure in people with glaucoma. There is also appreciable evidence that marijuana reduces muscle spasticity in patients with neurological disorders. A synthetic capsule is available by prescription, but it is not as effective as smoked marijuana for many patients. Pure THC may also produce more unpleasant psychoactive side effects than smoked marijuana. Many people use marijuana as a medicine today, despite its illegality. In doing so, they risk arrest and imprisonment.

Myth: Marijuana is a Gateway Drug. Even if marijuana itself causes minimal harm, it is a dangerous substance because it leads to the use of "harder drugs" like heroin, LSD, and cocaine.

Fact: Marijuana does not cause people to use hard drugs. What the gateway theory presents as a causal explanation is a statistic association between common and uncommon drugs, an association that changes over time as different drugs increase and decrease in prevalence. Marijuana is the most popular illegal drug in the United States today. Therefore, people who have used less popular drugs such as heroin, cocaine, and LSD, are likely to have also used marijuana. Most marijuana users never use any other illegal drug. Indeed, for the large majority of people, marijuana is a terminus rather than a gateway drug.

Myth: Marijuana's Harms Have Been Proved Scientifically. In the 1960s and 1970s, many people believed that marijuana was harmless. Today we know that marijuana is much more dangerous than previously believed.

Fact: In 1972, after reviewing the scientific evidence, the National Commission on Marihuana and Drug Abuse concluded that while marijuana was not entirely safe, its dangers had been grossly overstated. Since then, researchers have conducted thousands of studies of humans, animals, and cell cultures. None reveal any findings dramatically different from those described by the National Commission in 1972. In 1995, based on thirty years of scientific research editors of the British medical journal Lancet concluded that "the smoking of cannabis, even long term, is not harmful to health."

a lot more? come to: http://www.drugpolicy.org/marijuana/factsmyths/

Study says alcohol more harmful than marijuana

2009-04-26T19:07:00.003+07:00

A major new study into drugs, published in the British medical journal The Lancet, has concluded that alcohol and tobacco are more dangerous than many highly illegal drugs. They are listed in the top 10 most dangerous substances in the study. Researchers believe British law should classify alcohol and tobacco the same as hard drugs such as heroin and cocaine. Head researcher Professor David Nutt of Britain's Bristol University suggested a new classification of harmful substances. He said it needed to be based on the actual risks posed to society. Professor Nutt said the new system was necessary in Britain as the existing one was out of date: "The current drug system is ill thought-out and arbitrary,” he said. He added there was no scientific basis for excluding alcohol and tobacco as serious drugs.

Professor Nutt and his colleagues used three factors to find out how harmful a drug is: the physical harm to the user, how addictive the drug is, and the impact it has on society. The researchers were experts in drug addiction, lawyers and police officers with scientific or medical backgrounds and doctors. All of them agreed on the dangers of alcohol and tobacco. They ranked alcohol as the fifth and tobacco as the ninth most harmful drugs. Heroin and cocaine finished top, while marijuana was eleventh and Ecstasy finished last in the list of 20 drugs. The latter two are illegal in Britain and America, while alcohol and tobacco are legal. Tobacco causes 40 percent of all hospital illnesses, while alcohol is blamed for more than half of all visits to hospital emergency rooms. They also harm society in other ways. They damage families and stretch police services.

Alcohol is a sedative hypnotic. It is a powerful drug available to virtually anyone who wants to try it. Buzzed: The straight facts about the most used and abused drugs from alcohol to ecstasy describes the effects of alcohol on the body: Buzzed Book Jacket Graphic

* About 20 percent of alcohol is absorbed through stomach, and most of the rest is absorbed through the small intestine. Alcohol molecules are carried through the bloodstream and come into contact with the cells of virtually all the organs. When someone drinks on an empty stomach, the blood absorbs the alcohol rapidly. The body also absorbs higher concentrations of alcohol, such as mixed drinks or shots, very quickly

Physical State

* After drinking, people usually feel pleasure and become talkative at first. The feelings are usually replaced by drowsiness as the alcohol is eliminated from body, and the drinker may become withdrawn. This pattern often encourages people to drink more to keep the buzz going.
* Immediate medical attention is necessary if a person becomes unconscious, is impossible to arouse or seems to have trouble breathing.
* Drinking a high concentration of alcohol in a short period of time can suppress the centers of the brain that control breathing and cause a person to pass out or even die.
* When people pass out, their bodies continue to absorb alcohol. The amount of alcohol in the blood can reach dangerous levels, and they can die in their sleep. Continue to check on someone who has gone to sleep drunk. Do not leave that person alone.
* It is dangerous to combine alcohol with other drugs, especially those that make you sleepy
* Most alcohol is metabolized in the liver and then excreted. When someone drinks more alcohol than their liver can handle efficiently, the additional alcohol accumulates in the blood and body tissues.

Hillary Clinton dateng? Demo yuk! "-_-

2009-02-19T00:11:00.001+07:00

Hari ini tepatnya tanggal 18 februari, menlu AS Hillary Clinton datang ke Indonesia dengan tujuan mempererat hubungan kerjasama negara2 di Asia dengan Amerika Serikat, tapi yang disayangkan mengapa harus demo ya masyarakat?!

Tindakan seperti ini justru yang membuat citra Indonesia semakin jelek di mata dunia, sampai poster muka sang MENLU AS dilempari, di corat coret dan ini merupakan sesuatu hal ketidak sopanan yang dilakukan ketika kita kedatangan tamu..

Kita memang tidak tahu pasti apa yang ada di benak sang MENLU AS, tapi ya memangnya penting ya kalau kita harus berdemo ketika kita sedang kedatangan tamu, toh nanti sang tamu malah akan berpikir hal yang bukan2 dan itikad baik yg ada di benaknya siapa tau jadi akan di hapus dan malah mempersulit negeri kita ini.

Memang sih kita kan gak tau dia memiliki itikad baik atau buruk dengan kedatangannya kesini, tapi bukankah kita harus saling menghargai?? hmmm...

Disini ya saya tidak membela pihak manapun, ya semua orang memiliki pola pemikiran masing2, cuma ya bo masyarakat itu lebih tertib jangan sebentar2 demo, mentang2 sudah reformasi demo merupakan suatu ciri khas dan jati diri kita sekarang ini...

PONARI

2009-02-16T18:55:00.001+07:00

Wow sekarang Indonesia sedang dihebohkan oleh Dukun Cilik bernama Ponari yang konon katanya memiliki sebuah batu yang bisa menyembuhkan berbagai macam penyakit yang dia dapat dari sambaran petir..

Setiap hari gak diberita gak d infotainment pasti ada saja berita tentang ini, duh so irritating sekali mendengarnya kenapa kok masyarakat sangat mempercayai hal tersebut, sangat mudah mempercayai hal tersebut sampai rela mengantri berkilo2 dan berjam2 sampai bahkan ada korban meninggal karena antrian tersebut hanya untuk mendapatkan segelas air yang sudah di masuki oleh batu tersebut, huuuufffffff....apakah tidak ada cara lain yang lebih logis untuk menyembuhkan penyakit seperti pengobatan alternatif yaa??? !!!

Sebenernya sih ya ini hak masyarakat semua untuk mempercayai atau tidak hal tersebut, tapi ya kalau sudah seperti ini kan jatuh2nya malah syirik, mempercayai suatu benda lebih dari mempercayai Allah SWT, dah nauzubillah deh dosa syirik itu tidak ada ampunannya...

Yaaa intinya sih pengen menghimbau aja untuk para masyarakat jangan terlalu berlebihan mempercayai sesuatu lebih dari mempercayai Tuhan kita sendiri..

Kesian juga ponari bocah yang tidak tahu apa2 sampai jatuh pingsan demi melayani pasiennya mencelupkan sebuah batu ke dalam air2 yang dibawa para pasien...duh duh duh...

Masyarakat luar pasti menertawai perilaku seperti ini, mereka sudah jauh kedepan membuat suatu teknologi, kita malah disibukkan dengan hal seperti ini, mempercayai sebuah batu untuk menyembuhkan segala penyakit dan itu juga masih dipertanyakan ada khasiatnya atau tidak...

Sadarlaaaah wahai masyarakat, jangan menunggu kemurkaan dari Allah SWT

G.A.Z.A

2009-01-21T22:47:00.001+07:00

Beberapa kata yang ada di benak saya saat melihat perang di Gaza adalah Biadab dan Brutal!!!!!

This is truly war crimes so i guess now people knew who the real terrorist are..

One day the judgement from God will be happening, and no one can run away from it!

No Pain No Gain!

2009-01-21T22:02:00.001+07:00

No Pain No Gain, itu yang temanku selalu bilang padaku disaat kita mau fitness, hmmmm bener juga sih, tapi context itu tidak hanya berlaku pada hal itu saja, ternyata berlaku dalam banyak hal hampir seluruh aktivitas yang kita lakukan di dunia ini mengandung makna "No Pain No Gain!".

Sebagai contoh dari aspek yang lain adalah, ketika kita belajar atau sebut saja ketika sekolah, untuk menjadi yang terbaik kita harus berusaha keras belajar supaya cita2 kita tercapai dan tidak sulit untuk mengejar impian kita, dalam context tersebut jelas berlaku istilah tersebut karena seperti yang kita tahu bahwa sometimes belajar itu tidak selalu menyenangkan dan bakal ada titik jenuh dan stuck tapi kita tidak boleh berhenti sampai disitu nah dalam kondisi stuck, buntu atau stress itu adalah "pain-nya" tapi begitu kita berhasil mengatasi itu semua baru kita akan sampai pada kata "gain!".

Masih banyak lagi contoh yang lain seperti di dunia pekerjaan dan lain lain.

Pada akhirnya kita semua akan merenung, dan memikirkan oh benar juga ya "No pain No Gain" itu benar2 exist dan selalu mengikuti langkah kita di dunia ini.

Thanks for my friend who always motivate me with that clause.

12 x 2 = 24

2009-01-01T10:07:00.001+07:00

1 January 2009 it means that i am 24 years old right now, wow..getting older, seems like yesterday i just turned 23 n now it's already 24, huff!!!

Well i am just wishing to be a better person, do less sin stuff hehe, and wishing that i have a long age.

There are no big resolutions on this year, i will just go on with my life, see if anything good will happen to me.. jadi gak mau muluk2 bikin resolusi yang aneh2, nanti takutnya gak tercapai ya sama aja malah bikin tambah kecewa, hehehe

Well at least Harry Potter and The Da Vinvi Code are the ones i spent new year's eve with! hehehe sambil ditemenin ama sepupu gw yang ketiduran pas nonton! "-_-

Happy Birthday!

Welcome back

2008-11-18T00:50:00.001+07:00

Finally now i can write something again about my fuckin' great life..hehee

Malam senin kemaren (16-11-2008) adalah malam yang seru dimana semua teman sepermainanku yang bisa dibilang sahabatku di rumah, semua memiliki permasalahan dengan cintanya masing masing, ada yang di terror sama mantannya, ada yang di selingkuhin ama ceweknya waahhh suasana terbawa menjadi panas akibat luapan api api emosi dan kekecewaan mereka, meskipun 1 diantara mereka ada yang baru jadian dan lagi happy2nya deh, hehehe

Disaat itu aku hanya bisa memberikan nasihat dan support mereka untuk melakukan suatu tindakan yang menurut mereka benar dan akan mereka jalani, hmmmm....sementara aku sendiri tidak bisa berbagi bersama mereka bisa2 suasana bakal semakin panas dan gk karuan, hahahaha...so better to be a listener for a while while i can keep my personal stuff under control :D

Cukup lama juga percakapan tadi malam dan berpindah2 tempat dengan bahasan yang sama untuk mencari solusi bagi mereka yang sedang membutuhkan support dari teman2nya, ya mudah2an mereka semua diberi jalan yang terbaik oleh Allah S.W.T untuk melanjutkan hidup mereka dgn tidak mengulang kesalahan yang sama...

Seru2...sering2 aja ngumpul sambil share masalah2 kalian, siap jadi pemerhati kok, hehehe..

G.R.A.D.U.A.T.I.O.N

2008-09-20T00:04:00.001+07:00

Finally just got the graduation pics from one of my classmate from china..

Here they are:

i will add some more pics when i got it....

Post Secret

2008-09-14T01:22:00.001+07:00

There is a blog that share many people secrets, the name is Post Secret. Well i know that website address from the book that i have read at my friend's room on the college. The name of the book is "A Lifetime of Secrets", it's a collection of many people secrets that have been sent to the author by a post card and email.

When i read that book i began to wonder about all kinds of things that they kept as secrets. Some of them are tragic, some are happy, some are sad, and some are full of anger. It's a good new idea that the author wants to collect of secrets with anonymous identity so everyone can post it without no one knows who they really are and share their secrets so they maybe feel a little relieve after that.

I knew the web address from that book, the link is this: www.postsecret.blogspot.com

There is one postcard with secret inside and i love how it sounds, this is the image:

I wonder how my life could be, i will never know what will happen and also the person that wrote it.

M.A.L.A.Y.S.I.A

2008-09-14T00:11:00.001+07:00

MALAYSIA, hmmmmmm....i don't know why i love this country so much, not only because i'm alone here and have freedom to do anything that i really want but also i love the structure of the city, the life here and environment, it's more structured and clean (not that much) but yea it's clean.

I've been went out to some places here and have a lot of memories with some friends including the happy moments, sad moments, boring moments, angry moments, and disappointed moments. I've been through all that and i never regret it.

Some friends didnt really like Malaysia, always wanted to go back home (Indonesia) in every holiday even it's public holiday, but it's not working on me and one of my best friends. We love it here so much, a lot of histories among us and it's just comfortable to be here.

Thank you Malaysia, if i don't have plan to go to another country, i will come back here.

Peace, Love and Gaul *toeng toeng gak nyambung*

Euphoria (wed 10-09-2008)

2008-09-13T23:44:00.001+07:00

@Euphoria

We (me and mul) hang out to the club named EUPHORIA at Sunway lagoon. It's a nice club with 2 types of music, downstairs is r n b and upstairs is trance, of course we went to the r n b zone get our a** down into the dancefloor. Hehe..

Slipped Away by Avril Lavigne

2008-09-11T02:27:00.001+07:00

Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh

Na na na na na na na

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't

Oooooh
I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh

I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by

Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere your not coming back

The day you slipped away
Was the day i found it won't be the same noo..
The day you slipped away
Was the day that i found it won't be the same oooh...

Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you

===========I miss you friend, this is a song for you=============

D.E.N.I.A.L

2008-09-09T21:47:00.001+07:00

Somewhere in the back of my mind
Secretly I know you will find
Way amongst the blushing and glow
Teach me all the things I don't show

Mystery's a beautiful thing
What a gift a woman can bring
Never let it out just like that
Let him slowly figure it out

How can a flower bloom
Just over a day?
And at night
You've got to let the water drain in

I didn't want to fall in love with you
I didn't want to know the things I knew
It wasn't until I look into the mirror
Denial

You were like a power of nature
Telephatic beautiful creature
Understanding all my weakness
Patient love and know when it reaches

Cynical and that was just me
You were never supposed to be
Part of what I would call amazing

It took so long to finally see

How can a flower bloom
Just over a day?
And at night
You've got to let the water drain in

I didn't want to fall in love with you
I didn't want to know the things I knew
It wasn't until I look into the mirror
Denial

I didn't want to fall in love with you
I didn't want to know the things I knew
It wasn't until I look into the mirror
Denial

I see the way the pain goes like open minds for us
No complicated barriers to hold us back

I didn't want to fall in love with you
I didn't want to know the things I knew
It wasn't until I look into the mirror
Denial

I didn't want to fall in love with you
I didn't want to know the things I knew
It wasn't until I look into the mirror

===================Am I regret it??=========================

=> I don't think so :p

Gamang

2008-09-09T01:10:00.001+07:00

Emosi dalam diriku sedang bergejolak, entah apa yang aku rasakan semua tidak menentu, apa karena aku baru saja selesai menonton film yang rada sentimentil gitu, ataukah ada sesuatu yang lebih dari itu?

Hmm....

Rasa takut dan malas dan haus akan sesuatu menyelimuti diriku, tetapi walau bagaimanapun itu semua akan kujalani dalam waktu dekat ini. Aku tidak bisa merasakan apa2, yang ada aku hanya gamang dan kadang pikiranku melayang entah kemana. Tapi alhamdulillah aku merasakan ini di bulan Ramadhan, dimana aku harus lebih fokus pada-Nya berdo'a dan sebagainya. Aku gk mau mensia-siakan bulan suci yang penuh rahmat ini. Aku yakin Allah pasti membantuku untuk menghilangkan semua perasaan ini atau memberikan jalan yang terbaik padaku.

Amin ya rabbal alamiin...

Prison Break (Scylla)

2008-09-09T00:44:00.001+07:00

Season 4 is back with a lot of surprises, hell this series is one of my favorite among Grey's Anatomy and Friends. Full of actions and very tricky.

The Fall (2006)

2008-09-09T00:29:00.002+07:00

I just watched this movie and i must say that this is another "Brilliant"movie that ever made, it's like a tale but it's connected with the real story. I felt so emotional when i watched this movie, damn good well at least it's match with my taste which is unusual regular kind of movie, this is unique.

IMDb rated this movie 8.2 out of 10, so i guess it's really worth to be watched.

I Still Believe

2008-09-08T21:21:00.001+07:00

You look in my eyes
And I get emotional
Inside
I know it's crazy but
You still can touch my heart
And after all this time
You'd think that I
Wouldn't feel the same
But time melts into nothing
And nothing's changed

I still believe, someday you and me
Will find ourselves in love again
I had a dream, someday you and me
Will find ourselves in love again

Each day of my life
I'm filled with all the joy
I could find
You know that I am not the desperate type
If there's one spark of hope left in my grasp
I'll hold it with both hands
It's worth the risk of burning
To have a second chance

No, no, no, no, no, nooo I need you baby
I still believe that we can be together
Ooooohoh no no nooo
If we believe that true love never has to end
Then we must know that we will love again
Mmmh

Ooooohoh
I still believe, someday you and me
Will find ourselves in love again
Oh baby, yeah yeah
I had a dream, you and me
Will find ourselves in love
Again
(I still believe)
Oh baby I do
(Someday you and me)
Just give me one more time
And love
Again
I had a dream, someday you and me
Will find ourselves in love
Again

By Mariah Carey

Bryn Christopher- The Quest (Grey's Anatomy soundtrack season 4 last episode)

2008-09-06T16:51:00.002+07:00

Love this song

Grey's anatomy is back with season 5

2008-09-06T15:46:00.001+07:00

Promo Trailer

Can't wait to finally watch this

Gone Baby Gone

2008-05-04T16:40:00.000+07:00

Directed by Ben Affleck Gone Baby Gone is about the missing child who being kidnapped from house. The story is simple but it's unpredictable and make the audience think who is the "actor" behind all of this thing.

IMDB rating this movie 8.0 from 10.0, so it means it's worth to be watched, I love this Movie!

A letter for Mom

2008-04-28T17:37:00.001+07:00

Dear Mom,

I hope you are fine over there and always be on God's blessing.

I want to say that:

I am sorry about things that complicate you.
I am sorry about making some stuff that make u headache.
I am sorry to make you worry about me.
I am sorry that I am still need you about the material stuff.
I am sorry that I am not become a success person yet.

And I will try to:

Make you proud of me one day.
Give all the happiness to you.
Stop making u headache because of my behavior.
Give whatever that you need.

Mom, you are everything for me, I Love You so much!

Farewell Party

2008-04-20T19:05:00.001+07:00

Waktu hari rabu kemaren tepatnya tanggal 16 April 2008, gue dan beberapa sahabat gue pergi k KL jam 4 sore dari Nilai. Dan Inilah rutenya:

1. Kita pergi ke pavillion karena cewek2 mau pada bershopping ria, yang cowok2nya nongkrong di starbucks menunggu cewek2 selesai shopping.

2. Setelah pavillion rute kita menuju sri hartamas karena kita ada rencana mau makan malam disana, eh tapi ada kejadian yang seru pas otw ke sri hartamas, ternyata kita nyasar hahahaha...ada yang udh emosi di mobil, ada yang ketawa2 ada yang udh pasrah aja deh..hmmtapi dengan niat yang segudang kita semua gk nyerah, akhirnya ketemu juga tuh sri hartamas dan tempat makannya yang bertitle: exotic sesuai dengan suasananya..

3. Selepas pulang dari hartamas, kita menuju "laundry" tepatnya di The Curve sebagai acara farewellnya gue..kita pesen minuman, nongkrong2 dengan ngobrolin apa aja yg udah terjadi diantara persahabatan kita ber 4 selama ini, lucu, sedih, mengharukan, semua itu campur aduk jadi satu, tapi sayang musiknya kurang mendukung, akhirnya kita menuju no: 4

4. Berhubung kita tiba2 mendengar musik R n B dari arah cineleisure, kita ber 4 menuju kesana PLN nih ceritanya (Pindah Lokasi Nongkrong) ke salah satu bar yang berada di lantai 2 Cineleisure. Waaah disini seruuuu abies, lagu yg diputer enak2, dan akhirnya tanpa rasa malu2 kita ber 4 joget dah menikmati alunan lagu serasa di club, hahahaha...paling heboh meja kita yang orang2 laen pada ngeliatin, hahahahaha melepas stress yg terjadi di minggu itu.

Padahal hari penting buat masa depan gue besoknya adalah presentasi project gue, hahaha...sempet deg2an juga waktu itu malem, tapi alhamdulillah presentasinya lancar dan akhirnya project gue kelar juga dan gue unofficially lulus dari N.I.U.C

Thanks to you guys (Anggy, Gisela, Taufik)

I really had fun with you and all of you will be in my heart!

Mudah2an membuahkan hasil

2008-04-15T16:56:00.001+07:00

Dah 2 hari ini gue, kurang tidur, kadang cuma 2 jam ato gak tidur sama sekali di waktu malam demi untuk project yang dikejar deadline..

Hmmmm mudah2an apa yg gue usahakan selama ini membuahkan hasil yang tidak mengecewakan, thanks for all friends that have been helping me i really appreciate it.

Tomorrow is a big day, hope it will goes well..

Good luck Mi..

Kangen

2008-04-15T16:49:00.001+07:00

It has been so long we are not communicate, finally last night i got "nudge" on msn from my bestfriend.

"Helmi, How are you?"

Woooooooooooooowwwwwww, i was in stress but when i got the message almost all my stress has been gone, then we are chatting, talking through microphone and webcam.

We were talking, talking, and talking for like an hour when suddenly i realized it's almost 5 A.M in the morning, then we went to bed.

Hope to see you again in the future.

friends

2008-04-11T17:10:00.002+07:00

These faces always cheer me up whenever i see them on F.R.I.E.N.D.S, they always making me laugh with their jokes and attitudes.

Strategy

2008-04-10T00:02:00.001+07:00

Being clever is very important, but clever with no luck will only be static. Having luck is very good but luck doesn't come to everyone and we can't wait for the luck to comes. What we can do to gain what we expect is by trying and having a good strategy, but again everything is not that simple, we tried all our best to get what we want but without strategy it will be "zero" maybe not exactly "zero" it'll needs a longer time to get that. At this point strategy has playing an important role in our daily life especially when it comes to work or study.

And please underline this: Strategy is not the same like cheating!

Making out

2008-04-09T17:16:00.002+07:00

Hey All, Finally i started to write another blog on a different website hope it can be read by all of you and it's open for any critics.

Making out?? that's what my title is. Actually i like this words, and also i like doing it (ooppppsssss :P). It's an emotional feeling when there are some interaction between two people on a place and both of them have a feeling on each other or just "horny"(which with no feeling at all). It started when someone admire the looks or the body on somebody which after that they will rather play it with mind til it crash the feeling or they just let it in mind and play it without feeling.

Making out with feeling will create situation to be more romantic and unforgetable, but of course it will be deeper and will hurts longer when it comes into separation. It's quiet acceptable when people doing it on a relationship, but how if they don't? hmmmm....it's quiet "taboo" on the east culture but it's quiet open on the west culture. I think it's actually so wrong if people doing it without feeling or not in a relationship, but i can't deny also that i've been in that activities for long time.

Feeling guilty it's gonna happened right after we've done it, we started thinking about the sins that we've made then started to think "what the hell that i've done?" and all that questions will passed by cause we are human and human never can't get enough of anything coz devil will always be among us and too hard to defeat them.

I left all the perceptions to all of you guys to decide it's ok or not to be in it.